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[Kris]

The Power Journey, for me was extremely challenging and extremely rewarding. On the Power Journey I went through my own personal hell (pure hell...pure hell), but this hell held so many gifts for me, so many rewards, that although it feels so distant, so much like a dream, I don't want to lose it.  I don't want to forget, even though it is painful.  The Oracle told me there is a gift in every wound.  So here are some of the gifts I received.

I saw the power of opening to life, to all of life, to all of the experiences of life, fearlessly.
I saw how I live on the surface out of fear, but at the same time, there is within me a power greater than I ever knew.  And as I begin to live from this power, who I am will be completely and totally transformed.
I saw the deeper intent for my life, and I knew how this intent can carry me through any wall, through any obstacle.  Even know I can feel the beauty and magic of this intent.
I saw how there is nothing in this world that can truly harm me (this was one of the things that the Oracle told me).
I saw where my weaknesses were, and I saw how I can grow and strengthen those areas.
I saw my future life, what is possible for me, and it was beautiful.  It was a life worth going through hell for.

There is more to say, but I have to wake early in the morning.

One last thing I can say is that I am truly grateful to this school, to the collective here, and to K2, the unseen help, and the Oracle.  I am truly blessed to be a part of this school.  It amazes me all the power, all the magic, all the beauty that can be if we are willing to open to our highest Self.

Love and Light

Simon

[Kris]

hi school:

i just got home.
when the plane landed on honolulu i felt a rush of energy all around my body. what i felt was : my life is different and new and i intend on living it every moment.
i have been aligning my intent throughout my days. remembering it more often as we practiced on the power journey.

i cannot express what i feel after the power journey.
i feel lots of things i need to heal came up, such as the judge. the judge is very present on me and this judge prevents me for being and feeling free. when i am struggling i am in judge.

i will let it go.
i practice on the flight, let it go.
open my chest and let it go.

i looked at an aloha sign and i paralized. my life is different and i feel a new life here in honolulu.
tomorrow i am going to ride my moped wherever it leads me too and i will spend the day with my self and Self.

my Self is so peaceful.

i liked very much tulum.
me and cat caught a boat in paradise beach and went sailing for one hour and a half with two mexican men. sailors.

i have the sailor portuguese gene in me as i cannot express what i feel when i am on a boat looking at the ocean.
i feel natural and me.

the free day we had to me was incredible as i spent it doing what i enjoy the most: not knowing what comes next and live life as an adventure. Smiley

playa paraiso caught my heart.

when i opened the door of my house: i saw it so different!

Thank you school for the power journey.
I loved meeting everybody.

I am tired.
i want to sleep and i will communicate later.

mii corazon ha sientido casa en las ruas del mexico. no puedo expressar mi contentientamento en hablar, estar e conocer los mexicanos. mi corazon se ha sientido en su casa. me ha gustado mucho del mexico. me ha gustado muchissimo viver y bailar en el mexico. estoy enamorada del mexico.

amor y luz,

SariTa

[Kris]

BUT WHAT I WANT TO SAY IS THAT I LOVE YOU ALL!!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING MY MATES, MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN THIS TRIP OF KNOWLEDGE... Kiss Kiss Kiss

I'd like to scream my happiness to all of you for let you know that it was the most incredible experience of my life, I know I can connect and just sense the pure peace of being together.

I got back yesterday at 9ish, got to work in a circus and finally headed to bed at 7pm... woke up few hours ago.

Thanks to all for your beauty, your infinitive love and joy.
Thanks for your wonderful souls, that are still talking to me...
Yesterday working I was imagine to see you all between the people in the circus...

My heart is melting with memories and pure love.

My eyes look forward: this place is old, before to go to sleep I heard voices of my masters coming to me, remembering me that the change is working deeply in my tissues.

I recalled the energy felt on the pyramids, it's still there, imprinted in me.

I travel with my heart and I reach you all, thanking you for the incredible unity I could never reach alone.

We are all one.
I gained the piece of sky from the pyramids. I wish to recall it every moments of my life.

Thanks brothers and sisters.

Thanks Kris and Kalyn.

love and light
eli

[Kris]

Hello Ohana,

I want to express my thanks and joy for being able to connect with you all on the PJ.  I experienced a love and depth in my connections that I have rarely felt before.

Kristi- It was neat to see you begin to bridge the gap between your nagual and tonal.  Keep at it!

Sarita- I felt that you were my little sister in our Ohana.  It was wonderful to have your energy there.

Colin- Your energy is coalescing.  It is time to act my warrior friend.

Elisa- I feel you are excited about exploring a new world within Self.  Go for it!

Troy- We share parts of this path.  I am happy to travel with you as a brother warrior.

Simon- It was awesome to see you go through your personal hell and come back with gifts.

Brian- A raconteur you are!

Melissa- Thank you for your expressions and gifts of love.  There is so much more waiting for you.

Sophie- I sincerely enjoyed your presence.  Thank you for being with us.

Karen- It was awesome to see you connect deeply and dis-cover parts of your Self.  To Growth!

Amber- That living out loud looks good on you!  Thank you for all the work you did for us.

Makayla- What a strong, loving woman you are!  A very neat mix to see come out!

Jessica- It is great to see you making movement.  Keep it up!

William- I am glad you chose to stick around.  You have so much potential.  Use it!

Frank- Way to open up to your EB!  It was great to connect with you!

Mary- Thanks for being there Mary!  I enjoyed our connections!  Enjoy your new home.

Lyz- I loved watching you go deeper Lyz.  It is amazing.

Cat- It was great to see your mental body get disassembled.  Let's hope it lasts!  Wink

Paul-Eric- It was great to see you again.  Let it all go man.  It is simple.  You can do it.

Kris- Thank you for your guidance, your love, and your support.  Thank you.

Kalyn- The relentless stalker.  Thank you for never indulging egos.  Thank you for the Oracle.

Love and Light,
Howard

[Kris]

This year’s power journey was really amazing for me. I really do not know exactly how it has affected me on a deeper level yet, but I do know that I feel so much more calm and peace, and charges are not so heavy, and easier to identify & let go of.
 A day before it was time to leave I started to think about the projects I have at work that need to be done. And I could feel home slowly creeping in. I didn’t like it and repelled it then when I was able to release that, I was able to hold the journey without so much effort ing.
Coming home, I originally thought that I would have others to travel with and then realized the night before that I was traveling alone. I tried to rearrange my travel time but was too late and the effort it took to try to do this exhausted me. I was pushing and I just didn’t want to do that anymore so I let it go. It was hard to watch others leave. I didn’t want it to end. I need to do more releasing on that.
 Kristy came at just the right moment. We checked in with the apple guy and he said it was a possibility to travel together. I had to let it stay open and see when the transport vehicle came if they had room. They did and it ended up being a really nice trip. We were escorted in a very nice vehicle and only had to pick up one other couple on the way. So all in all, when I released what things were and just went with the flow of what was happening it all worked out perfectly. I even was able to spend more time with Lyz at the airport.
Thank you so much Kris for coming and talking to me about grading and drainage while I was waiting to leave. It helped me to focus on the exciting things I would do when I came back to work. I ended up very excited about my new life and was able to carry that home and into work today. Kris, I am so very grateful to you for everything that you have done and continue to do for me. Without you and Kalyn and all of your wonderful guidance I would not have the opportunity to be where I am today. I am creating such a beautiful life and it wouldn’t be possible without your help. Thank you.

Love and light
Jessica

[Kris]

Hello ohana,

The PJ was amazing.  I am so glad I went! I connected deeply with my emotional body, I found reference points for Self, I explored my dark and my light.  I experienced energy in a way I never have before and saw a beautiful exciting world awaiting me if I choose to pursue it.  I experienced a connection with Howard in a way that I have never felt with any person before. I allowed intimacy in my life and accepted my femininity.  I broke agreements and beliefs. I felt what letting go feels like. What a healing and transformational journey!

I feel so excited about my path and my life Smiley

I processed and cleared much of my way home yesterday.  I felt the sadness of leaving Howard, the loneliness of returning home as a lone warrior.  I cleared it through.  More dense jealousy and envy came up this morning, but this time (YAY!) I FELT it and cleared it a litte more...then a litte more.

The Universe took advantage of my willingness to hand me my stuff on a platter...as though it was saying, 'you need to deal with this now...it needs attention'.  My family began pulling at me within 15 minutes of me waking up this morning! With a calmness that I have never felt before, I laid clear boundaries with my mother (this took a while) and my sister.  I recall Kalyn saying, 'The best way to change someone else and your situation is to change yourself." So I shared as much as I could with my family and was honest.  I feel centered about this.

There is much work to do, but I am more than willing to let it come to me, to allow, to let go, and to enjoy the journey...wherever it may take me!

I Intend to align to that empty lightness today.

Love and light,
Karen

[Kris]

All the way home yesterday, and today, I have felt still with the energy of the Power Journey and the gifts received.  It feels it will take some time to integrate all of it.  I can't tell you all enough how wonderful it is for me to have met "all of you" and spent time together.  I feel like all of you are with me, still.  I don't know that I could meet a finer group than you.  The love and connection is beautiful.

I have been convalescing some today, being good to my eyes so that they may heal.

I am also feeling the need to adjust to the energy and change carried away with me from the Journey.  I feel like I am catching up to mySelf.  And my body feels to be adjusting to the increased energy

My trip to Coba was very powerful.  Thank you Troy (((((hugs, again)))))) for helping to make my solo trip possible.  As I went straight away for our dinner (where I drank more Tequila than I have in my whole life time) after I returned, and then fast to sleep before departing for the airport Saturday morning, I feel I did not have to opportunity to fully integrate what was received at Coba.  As I passed through the tunnel there, I had a very distinct sensation as if receiving an attunement that was immediately registered by my mental body and in my brow chakra and then began to fill my body.  My trip up the pyramid was very sacred (even if I got stung by a bee!).  The energy in my heart center was strong, clear, holy feeling.  As in the couple weeks before the journey and during our processes together, I was again feeling Spirit filling me, descending more and more into my body.  As K2 shared with me, this is part of my task now, merging the two worlds within me, bringing Heaven to Earth (so to speak).  Saying this makes me cry.  I am not even sure how I am to do it ... but I trust that I will.  I will allow my Higher Self to heal through me, to Be through me.

I kept recalling a certain dream experience just before leaving for the journey.  It was of standing in the center of a sacred circle wherein an elderly medicine woman places a celestial garland around my neck, at which time I looked to the dark of the deep night sky and read the words Spirit Birth dispalyed there panoramically - and then heard the woman say that, "Now the spirit of the ancestors will come."  I went into a trance dance which left me falling to my knees, weeping in grace, after which time I was carried away to rest, aware of great love that abided with me.  I feel this way, now.  I feel that great love abides with me.  I feel this is the meaning of the dream.  My journey has not been an easy one (I know the going is difficult for all).  The higher I went in energy was the deeper I have gone in self.  Sometimes faint of heart, I would ask God/Self, "How much more will you ask of me?"  I feel that Truth asks for all of "me."

So much has been received by me during my journey in these past many years ... and I still often feel I am 'pretending,' wearing old clothes that no longer fit me ... that my Higher Self has more in store for me, wants to express through me ... but that I hang on to old personality fragments that do not reflect who and what I truly am.  So...

I allow my Higher Self to think truth through me
I allow my Higher Self to feel Divine Connection through me
I allow my Higher Self to take correct action through me
I allow my Higher Self to heal through me
I allow my Higher Self to express Divinity through me
I allow my Higher Self to manifest abundance through me
I allow my Higher Self to realize my highest potential through me
I allow my higher Self to create love through me

Love and Light,
Kristi

[Kris]

 Smiley Smiley Smiley
  Wow...Thank you everyone I really enjoyed spending time w/ all of you.  I love you all very much!!  I feel I have brought home with me gifts and tools I can now apply to living my NEW life.  I am clear about many things.  This PJ really highlighted for me the general theme of PERSPECTIVE and TRUST and LOVE....I experienced how narrow my mental body can make it.  There is so much more to say about the PJ and I will as I post the next few days etc....

  My beautiful and beloved family....I love you all.
  Kris and Kayln...Thank you so very much....I love you both...and Xelha...I feel so loved and blessed to belong here with everyone.  Smiley Smiley Smiley  Thank you for the gifts, tools, processes, love and clarity and trust.......It is my intent to honor you both by applying them and using them to further grow and evolve along my path.  I look forward to being w/ you both in person again sometime soon.
   Unseen friends.  I am so gratefullll!!!!!!!!  thank you for everything....!!!!!!

  Love and light,
 Lyz

[Kris]

Hi guys,

I don't know what to say. I would like to thank everyone, Kris and Kalyn and unseen friends for their help: thank you very much.

I am working to get back on track and this Power Journey helped a lot, with tools, connection, energy and love. I feel that the releasing process is indeed a powerful one, and it helps to release everything that blocks me: resistances, doubts, fragments, pain. I just need to remove piece after piece of the dam I have built up and allow Self to feed on what I let flow down the river.

I keep applying the releasing process and even though I keep coming up against doubts whether I can continue to release things this way, or whether I would get stuck again, I intend to keep doing the process.

Since I came home, I rearranged some of my furniture to loosen up the energy and put up some reminders and gifts from the Journey.

I also have many ideas on what to do to change my life, to make it fuller and more fun. All that is between me and a more fulfilling life is the pain, resistance, and dense energies that I kept avoiding and need to let flow down the river.

Yesterday I kept applying the process and this releasing process is indeed the missing piece to be consistent and connected with deeper layers of Self. My main problem in the last few weeks was the slipping into fragment modes, and with this process fragments can be released within a minute or two.

Howard asked me whether I cry when I see something beautiful or touching, and yesterday I kept crying because I felt all this love for my friends in the collective, Kris and Kalyn, the Oracle. How could I have become so disconnected, why did I make that choice for the long way home a few years ago... Of course, it was my first real relationship, but I still feel like I need to truly find the trust again that I will make it, that I am able to do this work and not get stuck.

Love & Light,
Paul Eric

[Kris]

The one thing that kept coming to on the power journey was the deep feeling of Love, and the power of my heart…….I remember when we went to Tulum and just before we walked into the site, Simon stopped me and put his hand on my heart then told me to open my heart to the energy of the site……..I remember closing my eyes and really feeling my heart open, and when I opened my eyes I looked at Simon and saw that not only did I feel this great Love in me flow out, but it went right through him also and I know without a doubt that he felt it……

It was challenging to me at times to be a leader of my group, and something that kept me going was to open my heart and come from love to my group, to see them as they were below the surface self……I could see the child in everyone of them……..In the forum one can take their time in responding but with the group sitting in front of you there was no taking your time to respond…….

Spending time with everyone on a power journey is something magical indeed especially when we first meet everyone in the beginning……..its just wonderful to run into everyone now and then at the resort because you always know your seeing a friend, and someone who Loves you for just being you……

One thing that came to me on this journey was the ability to go up for guidance and wait for it come down through me instead of trying to figure out everything with the mental……I just went up and trusted that when it was my time to speak that I would just speak instead of setting up what I thought K2 or the Oracle wanted to hear……….

I am a very lucky man in many ways with what I can sense and see, I found out that what I need in my life is to find Trust in Self………in fact Self came up so many times to me in this PJ that I can’t ignore what was seen and what I need to do……..

I send you all my Love and Light………William

[Melissa]

This was not an easy journey for me. It was hard to face reality.  It was hard to see how disconnected from Self I had become. The push pull, grasp fighting, repelling, angry, rebellion, immaturity, and split that I am facing. The PJ I received so much, even though it was not so pleasant for me at times.

I felt my wall up but did my best to open as I have many times in the past. Thank God, for those reference points of love and guidance in my past, otherwise I would be lost.
 
So I don’t even know where to begin to speak of these things except I was told the unpleasant things about what I was doing  to create all my suffering for myself and why life had become hard and loud and bumpy.

I am still processing through it but hold a deep commitment for myself to grow and evolve form this. Even today, I was at work internal conflicting a charge and laughed because life has certainly handed it to me on a silver platter. There is a growth potential through work and all these changes…. I see it now.
   
As the week went by I was able to make the corrections  but so much shadows  surfaced it was hard to be in them  and look at them how immature, how fear based , how I see myself as so awful , dirty and tainted. I carry so much shame and asked it to be healed. My second charka was scraped of the gunk. It was ick
 
I have made a few serous mistakes that I am atoning for and asking for forgiveness but like all mistakes all that really matters is I make the commitment for the correction and follow through. Some of this is not letting Michael in and super impose on me his belief system, which goes very much against what I know and what I want to do in my life. To manage my stress and be with what is and take good care of myself. I have priorities and they are precious to me.

Tulem was a quiet experience for me. I enjoyed the beach and relaxing swimming and friendship.
 
Coba however blew me away. I am still tired form the energy as it was intense, beautiful and challenging.

I can say I slipped into visions in and out seeing our clan in another way. See the energy and leaving with a guide of future self...who talks to me. My energy body surfaced so many gunk’s it was hard to be with it but I tried . Just today, it was returned to me with repairs being made under the pyramid. I am clear sensations of the unseen help . I have clear sensations of how we hold energy in the clan and perform through intent. I saw glimpse of the doorways and  problebly could have been in that world if I had not come with so much blocks and drains.

So my work is cut out to get back to Self and to allow mama bear, which by the way came in as a state of beingness which I had never experienced in my life.  The state was so aware and I was filled with my empowered Self and presence. It was my gift to remember.  I am not there yet but daily I do try to find mama bear  even if it still just a guiding force.

I have so many to thank.. As the week went by, I needed to let go. I decided my money went so far this trip ( seemed like I barely spent any and what I did spend had a lot of value and a lot was covered)  .. I barely spent  my budget and had left over so I went shopping and found my intent for expressing gratitude for the gifts that all of your brought to me whether you realize it or not.  I have much to learn and I am humbled  and the way out of lack was to just give  from my heart with thanks.  The lack even said oh you will not have enough to buy for everyone something of value but I went with it and had spare money! Go figure. 
 

 
Troy you and your family opened my heart. Thank you. I enjoyed the connection with you,  your tequila , your music and your great intent!
Tina, I am grateful you have come to participate.  You have much to offer and looking forward to it..
Katrina-you have the gift of openness and youth.. WOW!

Howard and Karen- thank you both for different reasons. Howard for holding a loving space for me as you know “Me”  and that I can do this. Karen for just being YOU! I enjoyed the talk and the bottle cap exchange. That was pure magic and I hold it dear to my heart.
 
Sarita for just being the feisty, beautiful you that you are. It was fun to watch you move around.

Eli for being a great mate.. and all your passion is infectious.

Kristi, you are so soft and feminine and flow.. You don’t even know it do you? You were a fantastic roommate by the way and I enjoyed seeing what you bought yourself  that reflected that softness. You wear it well.

Cat... You are funny and I want to tell you stop burning yourself up.. You have  so much you can do  that is better and more loving to yourself.  You can do this and my door will be open  for a place to stay…if you want to check out Florida.

OH  Ange… I love you. I can’t thank you enough. You hold a space for me and well I am grateful Thank you Thank you thank you! Your business card was so abundant. It was like a gift handed to me. 

William-  It is so good to see  go through this. It dawned on me going through things are unpleasant sometimes,, they just are but it is not hard to see the benefits you are gaining and that is huge for you!

Oh Julie, You are funny and I enjoy your company. You are going to have so much more then you can imagine .. Just trust it.

Makayla the chili peeper. You have a spice for life and amazing! Thank you for giving me your time and guidance. I have a thick skull but it got in!

Brain-You are so smooth and have such solidarity about you , smart too . I enjoyed spending time with you.
Paul Eric-  am so glad we got to spend time together. The Hawaii 5 O was fun and enjoyed dancing with you.

Frank- you are such a gentleman . You are doing so well and have opened up so much.
Mary-  Thank you thank you thankful for just being you and being a friend.
 
Lyz- I was hard on you and I am sorry you were a great mirror for me and No Lizzy Borden’s from me( I watched too many scary movies as a kid) maybe a tad too much tequila too.  . That was so funny about the masks you know letting it go it will get lighter. Clean out those closets!!!!!!!

Bob and Dar- I enjoyed you  both as dinner mates. It is hard not to notice that you just get lighter and lighter each trip… so what a way to live! 

Sonia-the presence of you and the baby were so soft and sweet. Thank you for sharing… you are forever pink in my heart.

Simon- I just love you and you are a very good friend. You are going to go far in life… I just know it!
 
Jessica- the changes in you are amazing! Thank you for your gift of freindship and laughter!

Colin- Oh you are a funny drunk. I am glad you came You are a great freind

K2 - Thank you.  Thank You and Thank you.  Not easy but it is what I needed . Thank you for your help and guidence.

Unseen help- I finally opened to you and see you more, feel your movemnt more and help. Thank you for sharing your guidence.
 
Xel-ha!!!! Oh my. 

Love and Light,
Melissa

[Mohamed S.]

Melissa thanks for sharing ..it brought checked  tears..I dont know why.Maybe I can feel the love ..

I do feel regret for missing this...


Love and light,
Mohamed

[Kris]

Everyone,

Continue to share your process from the Journey here.

On the Journey you were given the gift of a new life - a beautiful, breath taking life. Tune into the sensation of it every day and live from that wonderful place.

That new life is now in this moment. Live in this moment, not the past. You may feel the past wanting to come back into your life. Don't let it. Just allow the past to pass through you as you focus on the now moment of your new exquisite life.

Love and Light,

[Melissa]

Melissa thanks for sharing ..it brought checked  tears..I dont know why.Maybe I can feel the love ..

I do feel regret for missing this...


Love and light,
Mohamed

  Mo please make it a go to come. My heart is really with you on this and you will never regret it.

Love and Light,
Melissa

[troy]

Since our return to the beautiful bay area Tina and Catrina and I have continued to work together and do processes together with the intent to stay connected to the future selves we saw on the power journey. To keep close to our hearts and in our awareness the details and the energy of who that person is and what we have to leave behind to become that person.

It has been powerful and a bonding and healing experience for all of us. Things have been moving and shifting and just yesterday catrina and I both had similar experiences regarding money and the way we handle our personal finances. We shared about our experiences together and were able to help each other see how we have been repelling and grasping and to see the energy behind our actions and lack of actions. We also were able to clearly see how when things come up we think are bad our immediate pattern is to try and fix it under our own power. We reset our intents to just be with things when they first occur in our lives and get a feel for them and wait until we know it is time to act.

We had a long conversation the three of us last night about belief systems and we can be bound up and in seperation from trying to maintain them. Then we did the releasing process we learned at the power journey and let it all flow down the river.


Love and Light

Troy

[troy]

A couple of PJ moments


Love and Light

Troy

[Karen]

Ah Kris thank you for posting that! I do feel a new life whether it was there or here with me now...it's a part of me and I will tune into it everyday!

I love you and Kalyn both so much

Love and light,
Karen

[IzumiT]

Hello Kris sensei and the people who shared the stories with us,

Thank you,thank you so much.
I can't find the word,but thank you so much.

Love and Light,
 Izumi

[Howard]

I loved reading through this.  Troy, thanks for the pics.  I feel true joy coming from you and Kris.

I have had a bit of a rocky time since returning.  I have been sick in one form or another since the flight home.  However, I do feel like a different person.  There is an energy present in myself and in my life that was not there before.  It is a kind of boundary between the illusion and my Self.  I feel more Self present, more capable, more responsible for my energy and actions.

I have been working to recall and live the energy I found on the PJ.  I am seeing so many areas in my life that I desire to change, and the windows for those changes are coming quickly.  I am seeing more power and less attachment in my relationship, and it is neat to see.

Troy, thanks for the ring.  It has served as a constant physical reminder to keep the energy of the journey close at hand. (no pun intended)

Love and Light,
Howard

[Ange]

When I was a child I used to enjoy rubbing a balloon on my head until the static electricity built up on it - then sticking it on the wall. I loved how the static worked like magic. And I also enjoyed the odd sensation of that electricity in my hair - making it stand up all over my head!

When I walked through the tunnel at Coba, this is what it felt like. It felt as if the tunnel was covered in "hairs", and a static electricity in the tunnel was causing the "hairs" on the tunnel walls to cling to my body. It kind of tickled like that. When I came out the other side and sat down, I received a clear sensation of myself in the future. Very light in tone and very full of bright light and abundant, and clear. Kris had said we would receive a gift at Coba - some right away, some in the middle, and that some would get it gradually as the process went on. I felt this was my gift - and wondered  - did I get it all?

While sitting there, the next thing I became aware of was Karen. She came out of the tunnel an surrendered herself on the ground. Kris asked her soon after if she was drinking plenty of water to make sure it wasn't a heat related problem. But it was all the energy she took in. (Later she had Jaguar Eyes)

Kris and the Oracle suggested that if we felt we were full, to go ahead and let that be it for our process, and we could feel free to explore on our own. I debated with myself from a fragment - did I need to leave now? Did I need to stay? This powerless and appeasing fragment is the one major missing piece I have had in coming into my own Power and Self in my Path. Now that I can see it without identifying in it, I know what I need to work on releasing for a while!

So the gift was two-fold! I had the very fragment come up that I most need to release and was given the Self I need to be instead!

It didn't feel good when the Oracle asked me "What are we going to have to do?" But when I tune into it now, I can sense all the love they have for me- and the love I have for them. This is what's real.

They got my attention, anyway! Then they told me (in a different process at Coba) that I was not going to find and talk to my future self. I was to merge with her instead. The tone was like "Enough of this. You merge now." Then They blew Kalyn's breath onto my head. (To which I grasped at getting it right, and then tried to just trust that I got it)

I walked over to Troy and Howard who were the gate keepers with my intent set to be as open as I possibly could. Troy looked over at me and blew his breath onto me. This time, I felt a palpable energy come over me. This felt like a sparkling coating of liquid-gel light that started at my head and chest and took over everything in the end. Yes - very much like in the Matrix when the silver liquid takes over Neo right before he is freed from the Matrix. Though definitely more pleasant! I lost all tension and became the energy. For a few moments, no trace of my personality was there. Then Howard and Troy agreed that I could pass through the gate.

For some reason, I had a notion that the observatory pyramid was like a "revolving door" of sorts. I felt I could walk around it with the intent to complete the old cycle and come out the new future me. As I began walking around it (counterclockwise) I saw Brian laughing out loud as if he had just seen through a mis-understanding and was laughing at its senselessness.

After I finished walking around the observatory, I felt somewhat at a loss for what to do next. So, i just sat down on a rock and intended to merge with my Future Self. And, soon, I really was in the future. I was calm, empowered and clear. More than a sensation, I was actually there in the future. I was really there. It was beyond what I could have ever imagined, and as plain as a breath.

Love and Light,
Ange